Baby Killer!!!!!!!!!!

This story is about my stupid friend, Leen who got miscarriage lately.

Well….She doesn’t really got miscarriage on its own…Its her…ALL HER!!!!! She’s been eating a pills that might endanger the baby…And she succeeds..

HOW COULD SHE DO THAT!!!??? HOW COULD SHE???

I am sorry…I am not trying to “menyibuk” people’s affair. But, let me tell u this…I am very sensitive when it comes about the baby… I hate to hear someone’s trying to kill the baby and all that stuff…

What I hear again…She got internal bleeding…(Antam kau leen!!!!!!!!!!Antam tah kau!!!!)

This is her second baby that she KILLED!!!! What is in her head??? Doesn’t she have any sense at all??? Huhhh….

From now on…I don’t want to know anything about her anymore…BABY KILLER!!! Huhhh….

This is the sad things. I am the one who wants a baby…yet, God still wants me to be patient and always pray for him. Yet..This Leen been given a baby in her belly…She doesn’t want it and killed it…. Huhhh….

I want baby very much…very very much….

Adopted Baby…

After a few days I lost my baby….One of my friend called me( she called me on 04.10.2008) to tell me that someone want to give me a baby to adopt…I am so excited… I was like… “Yahoooo…..Baby…Baby….” My friend said the baby is still 7 months old…So, I have time to save up a bit of money for the coming baby…

And then…jeng jeng jeng….few days after that….(i think 14.10.2008), my friend called me, asking for my help since she’s at miri at that time. She told me that girl is going to give birth…What the F***!!!! I am the one who is panicking here….Oh Shit…

I send her to the hospital and while I wait for her..I went to hua ho to buy some of the baby’s stuff….I am ssooooooo excited…. And the baby is born. Its a girl. Her name is Siti Adriana… Nice name huh…

Ct Adriana..Cute Eyh...

Later at night..The doctor call me to talk something with me. The doctor said the baby was gone. They try to save the baby as much as possible. :’( The baby have no oxygen in her body that makes her more weak. :’(

The next morning…Me, abg and my friend went to the mosque and ask someone to help us on burial… :’(

Its been a sad week to me. I feel like I lost two of my baby in one time. It hurts me a lot. I feel like its too much for me to handle. Luckily, I have a nice and cool husband who always there for me. And my family, who always support me.

Thank you to my family, my husband, my two friend and that girl. Thank you for giving me hope and strength to live on. Lov u all… Mwahhhzzz…

Ct Adriana

My Baby… :’(

09th October 2008…I lost my baby AGAIN!!!!!!!!

I hate it… I feel like a failure…FAILURE!!! :’(

Its A Boy….Uwaaa…. That baby is 5 months old….

Ok…Lets not talk about it… Its make me feel sad…

My Baby Boy...

I am Pregnant AGAIN!!!

June 2008… I have been wondering why my PMS coming late than usual… Then, something occurred my mind. Hmmm…..I straightaway going to the nearest supermarket and bought pregnancy test (PT). And its positive. I can’t believe my eyes. I keep thinking..maybe the PT is not good. I will buy another one. I rush to the supermarket once more and test it again after few hours. It still positive.

I am so excited. I quickly call my husband and tell him a good news. He is very excited. After we lost our unborn baby…we got the new one as a replacement. I am happy for it. Thank you Allah….

The Saddest Day Of My Life :(

March 3rd, it is the most saddest day of my life. why is that? I lost some1 that I want so much….I lost that person who never come back to this world forever.

I lost my BABY. I got miscarriage at around 1:45 am. Why does it happen to me? Why? Why? I love that baby so much. I hope for that baby so much. But, even the doctor can’t save my baby… :’(

Nobody understand how I feel about it…. Because I am the one who experience it. And its my baby. That baby is a boy. And He only live for 22 weeks. 5 more weeks to survive. :’(

I have to stop crying and hope for the new one to come. But, I can’t stop. My tears keep coming out. I lost all my hope to survive in this world. Maybe not my *rezeki anyway. But, what hurt me the most is some1 is happy about it. And I don’t like it.

He’s been buried this morning on March 3rd around 9-10 am. I want to come and see, but I don’t think I am strong enough to see. He’s been given a name. His name is Mohamad Ali. Nice name right? My first baby is Siti Aishah. My second one who is a boy and my third one don’t have a name because they are too small. All of them are miscarriage… :’(

I want a baby so much right now. Hopefully I got that *rezeki next time. Its god willing. :’(