I pick Bamz up at her home at flat and then Nani at bank. We went to de’Fountain (Mahal kali ah…Unreasonable), drink coffee latte (as usual…) and talk a bit. After that, we went to eat at Big Papa’s restaurant and eat nasi ayam.

We talk about many things and kami yg paling bising di restaurant atu dan arah de’fountain atu kami jua yg paling bising. Huhu…

After that..I send Nani back to the bank and Bamz to her flat. Then, I went home and have a rest.

Evening…as usual…I go urut2 thing-ing for my pantang2 and everything. Haha… I forgot that I am still under pantang anyway…Hahaha…

Miss her so much…. Haven’t talk with her for quite a long time.

Then, using my car, we went to Mall. I be a car instructor for 5 minute, becoz there’s a woman who can’t reverse out her car becoz she thinks her might hit the wall.. Wuhuuu~~~

Then…we take a walk and chill again at Restaurant at Mall… (Kanyang ku eyh…)

Around half past 10, we went home. Owh…Very tiring day, yet fun to be with Mega.

Miss u so much, Mega. Hope we could meet soon.

I meet her….My old pal of mine from few years back. The one who always with me for the past few years. We were always together before. The four of us always spend our time and waste our time until dawn.

After my parents get to know about it… I never get to contact them anymore until yesterday. Huh…

What should I do? Now actually I am excited and half of me, want to stay away from her. I am just worried that she might give me a bad influence and I might getting involve again with a bad things which I try as possible to forget about it.

Huhhh….

We went to the furniture shop and electrical shop for the houses. I also take my chances to see the prices for my new houses. (Batah plang lagi).

Mia then told me a story about a woman(I will called Miss A) who work at Mata2 when Mia going for a photostat at night. While the woman photostat for Mia, the policeman came in. Miss A asked Mia..Is that a policeman?. And Mia answered, yes. The policeman wanted to buy a cigarette, but the cigarette are not sold there. As the man wants to leave, the woman asked the policeman whether she’s a policeman or not. When the police said yes. she then ask the man whether he’s “bujang” or not. The guy was mcm takut of miss A. And then, Miss A mcm “gatal”…She said…”adakah kawan2mu yg masih bujang atu…Intro2kan ah. Aku alum kawin nie. Akukan kawin sama policeman…” The policeman answered her..”Cari arah headquarters sana…Ramai tu yang masih bujang…”. Hahaha… That woman was so macam “itchy” and “craving” for a man especially a policeman Haha… Mia and I think that woman maybe dream about a man wearing a police uniform (cosplay) to have sex with her…Hahaha…

Later at night…I went out with abg and I told him the story about Miss A. And abg laugh about it. And I ask..Abg..Is there any of your friend who still bujang. And abg said…Buaya adalah… Hahaha… Abg laugh about it all night thinking that I am jealous about it and keep warning him not to go to that shop with wearing a uniform. I said…She will imagine abg having sex with abg wearing the police uniform . Maybe she thinks police uniform ani “hot”…Hahaha…

Note : To all the policeman out there…Please go to the shop at Mata2 there and display yourself wearing a police uniform so that she can choose who she wants to get married with. Hahahaha…

What a day…

Around 2 pm…I went out to Cally’s house. There have bouncer there and every kids stuff. When I arrive there…I just got to know that it’s Jojo’s (Cally’s second daughter) birthday. The kids are playing with the bouncer until around 4 pm. I feel sleepy waiting there. I feel like I wanna go home. So bored there….If Mia was with me at that time…I might not feel bored like that. (Kalau ada tilam in front of me… Tidur ku kali eyh) Hahaha… I went home right after I ate the cakes. Hahaha…

Evening, I go for an exercise. I haven’t got a chance to go for exercise this days. I don’t really have time for it. Now… I got my chance. I am gonna do it. Hahaha….

Today…I am awake by my own mobile phone. Mia called…. She told me that her battery flat. I just remember that she got interview at one of the schools. So, I went to pick her up and bring her to the place and she hantar me to my office and I let her use my car to sort all the things that she wanna do. (you are lucky Mia…If I already work at other place, I might not be able to help you…)

Just now, I went to have a coffee and donuts with Mia. Thanks Mia. Nanti I lanja you. After that, I send Mia home. And I went home straightaway after that. I am not feeling really well…. I might need to sleep early tonight. Lamah ku eyh… Mia nie punya pasal…Hahahaha…Menjangkit…

I need abg at this moment. He always take care of me when I am sick. Miss abg so much. Mwahzzz…

I have heard many stories about marriage from other people. It makes me worried and its frighten me to hear all this. After years of marriage…in the end after we are in the age of 40…we got divorce…. Its hurts the woman to be divorce in that kind of age. :’(

When I went home…I read a post of Mia. I feel sorry for her (Really…I am). It makes me worried about my own future…

And now…at this moment…. I am thinking…Is he really the right person for me? Will he still be with me after years and years of marriage…I am getting paranoid of it.

People around me (that I know..) got divorce after 10-30 years of marriage and living together….. What really happen actually?

In the end…I am stranded in my own thinking. And hoping for the great future with him….Amin….

Still In Love With You…My Dear Husband….

Well….She doesn’t really got miscarriage on its own…Its her…ALL HER!!!!! She’s been eating a pills that might endanger the baby…And she succeeds..

HOW COULD SHE DO THAT!!!??? HOW COULD SHE???

I am sorry…I am not trying to “menyibuk” people’s affair. But, let me tell u this…I am very sensitive when it comes about the baby… I hate to hear someone’s trying to kill the baby and all that stuff…

What I hear again…She got internal bleeding…(Antam kau leen!!!!!!!!!!Antam tah kau!!!!)

This is her second baby that she KILLED!!!! What is in her head??? Doesn’t she have any sense at all??? Huhhh….

From now on…I don’t want to know anything about her anymore…BABY KILLER!!! Huhhh….

This is the sad things. I am the one who wants a baby…yet, God still wants me to be patient and always pray for him. Yet..This Leen been given a baby in her belly…She doesn’t want it and killed it…. Huhhh….

I want baby very much…very very much….

At first, we went to the bank as I want to know the process of home loan. And then…we went to the mall to buy a donut…Just a donut…Hehehe… As soon as we finish buying a donut…we straightaway went to some places. Hehehe…

Then, we went to Sg Hanching at my land there. After that, we went to see her land at Jerudong. As on the way to bring her home… I started to laugh….

“Time passed by…Few years back…I never think of having a house and this and that about my future. I don’t give a shit what will my future will be. At that time…I only think how to enjoy myself tonight. Whats my plan for tonight? Where should I hang out? Only that… Never that I think about my future…

As now, I am a bit mature…I start to think to have a nice family and especially….my own house. I start to think…how many rooms should I build…for my future child(rens)… If my past friends got to meet me again nowadays…They might be a bit surprise for my changes. Well… I am very “jahat” a long time ago. Hahaha…

As many people said..Life goes on. My life never stop there. My past never come back to me and haunt me anymore. I left it behind as I never want to turn back to my past life. Its horrible and scary and I have always regret for what I have done before as I have disappointed everyone of my family. Huhhh… I never want to remember that. It makes me want to hit my own head and let it bleed… I am proud to have my family here…. They are very positive about me and they are very patient with all my doings…All my sins…All that I have done before… Thank you….

Few years after that… I change to be a better person. Much better than what people predict it. Whats make my family more happy.. I never come back to my past again… I don’t even glance at it…. Yokatta….

To my family..Thank you for always been there for me and always encourage me to go on with my life and never let me giving up with this life. Thank you….

I never expect someone will say something to me… especially that person. I work hard for the company… not that I want something in return. Its just that I love my job…I am trying to be more committed in my job. What’s wrong with it?

Just now, I was sitting besides the table..And that person walk right besides my sits and said that I am pretending to be “rajin” in front of the boss…. WHAT THE FUCKKKK!!!! I never pretend to do my job…This is shitness…. I never expect that person will say that to me…. That person say it with tiny voices…yet, I could hear it.

It hurts me a lot. I feel so disappointed that someone thinks badly about me. If that person thinks like that about me…I might just quit the job…Let it be…. I can find a better job… Huh….

What do u think? Am I a pretender to you?

:’(

Lets start from the morning first…I have a chat with Mary and Mia. (Actually I don’t really fancy chatting early in the morning, since usually I have many work to do in the morning).

Mary always come to me and talk to me almost about everything. I love her like she’s part of me and my family. That morning she chat with me about a girl named HK (Not The Real Name). I understand how Mary feels as I also feels the same too sometimes. I am trying to make Mary not to feel too disappointed with HK.

On the other half of it, I also have a chat with Mia. Mia told me about Nico’s conditions. I am a bit worried about Nico actually even though she doesn’t know that I am worried. Hehehe… U know Mia…I really hate when someones peeked and busybody into my private life…my private secret. That’s why when u tell me about it… I am so pissed off and bad mood. I hate it very much. This things happen to me before. At that time, I was working and I leave that person, Shu… at my room. And you know what.. As I was working at that time… Shu was also working in my room by reading all my diary…FUCK that Shu…. After that I didn’t contact with Shu anymore and in the end, I broke up with Shu.

Noon….I am taking my half-day work since my parents and I already planned to go to KK by 2:00 pm. When I reach home….My father told me that going to KK….. CANCELED. My father always do that in the last minute. Huh…. (Nasib baik belum packing barang…)

Evening…The unplanned schedule…We are suppose to go to KK…Instead we are going to Belait with uncle Hj. M. (Uncle…U still the coolest!!!!). Oh My God…I thought I am gonna lose my life there instant. The way he drive is like….Woooooo…. I dunno how to describe it. Its frightening me and we almost got accident for more than 10 times…(Glad I am still alive…). In the end…we found the place that we search for few hours…(pusing2 KB). And Guess what…. The person…went to Kuching. What the F***!!! After this hours…That person went to Kuching!!!! Ahhhh well…

Then…We accompany uncle Hj.M. to take his car…after we went home around 10.30 pm. Its very tiring yet…many things happen and things aren’t what I suppose to plan…Hehe…

P.s : Uncle hj.M….I hope u can go back to your old self…Bless you…