Baby Killer!!!!!!!!!!

This story is about my stupid friend, Leen who got miscarriage lately.

Well….She doesn’t really got miscarriage on its own…Its her…ALL HER!!!!! She’s been eating a pills that might endanger the baby…And she succeeds..

HOW COULD SHE DO THAT!!!??? HOW COULD SHE???

I am sorry…I am not trying to “menyibuk” people’s affair. But, let me tell u this…I am very sensitive when it comes about the baby… I hate to hear someone’s trying to kill the baby and all that stuff…

What I hear again…She got internal bleeding…(Antam kau leen!!!!!!!!!!Antam tah kau!!!!)

This is her second baby that she KILLED!!!! What is in her head??? Doesn’t she have any sense at all??? Huhhh….

From now on…I don’t want to know anything about her anymore…BABY KILLER!!! Huhhh….

This is the sad things. I am the one who wants a baby…yet, God still wants me to be patient and always pray for him. Yet..This Leen been given a baby in her belly…She doesn’t want it and killed it…. Huhhh….

I want baby very much…very very much….

Adopted Baby…

After a few days I lost my baby….One of my friend called me( she called me on 04.10.2008) to tell me that someone want to give me a baby to adopt…I am so excited… I was like… “Yahoooo…..Baby…Baby….” My friend said the baby is still 7 months old…So, I have time to save up a bit of money for the coming baby…

And then…jeng jeng jeng….few days after that….(i think 14.10.2008), my friend called me, asking for my help since she’s at miri at that time. She told me that girl is going to give birth…What the F***!!!! I am the one who is panicking here….Oh Shit…

I send her to the hospital and while I wait for her..I went to hua ho to buy some of the baby’s stuff….I am ssooooooo excited…. And the baby is born. Its a girl. Her name is Siti Adriana… Nice name huh…

Ct Adriana..Cute Eyh...

Later at night..The doctor call me to talk something with me. The doctor said the baby was gone. They try to save the baby as much as possible. :’( The baby have no oxygen in her body that makes her more weak. :’(

The next morning…Me, abg and my friend went to the mosque and ask someone to help us on burial… :’(

Its been a sad week to me. I feel like I lost two of my baby in one time. It hurts me a lot. I feel like its too much for me to handle. Luckily, I have a nice and cool husband who always there for me. And my family, who always support me.

Thank you to my family, my husband, my two friend and that girl. Thank you for giving me hope and strength to live on. Lov u all… Mwahhhzzz…

Ct Adriana

My Baby… :’(

09th October 2008…I lost my baby AGAIN!!!!!!!!

I hate it… I feel like a failure…FAILURE!!! :’(

Its A Boy….Uwaaa…. That baby is 5 months old….

Ok…Lets not talk about it… Its make me feel sad…

My Baby Boy...

Life Goes On…

It’s been a week since I lost my baby… I have to go on. Time will not awaits me. I need to catch up with my life right now.

Last night, my husband gone back to his workplace. I am gonna be left alone AGAIN. I cry and I cry whenever I remember my baby.

I hate being left alone here. When I am alone, it just keep getting into my head. My baby. My baby. And I will start crying again.

Oh God…please give me a strength to face all this. Amin….