No!!!!!!!!!!

I wish I don’t meet her at all…I wish I don’t go out with Mary at that time…I wish I stayed at the office that afternoon. I wish I could turn back time….

I meet her….My old pal of mine from few years back. The one who always with me for the past few years. We were always together before. The four of us always spend our time and waste our time until dawn.

After my parents get to know about it… I never get to contact them anymore until yesterday. Huh…

What should I do? Now actually I am excited and half of me, want to stay away from her. I am just worried that she might give me a bad influence and I might getting involve again with a bad things which I try as possible to forget about it.

Huhhh….

Past And Present~~~

Today…I am taking my half-day. I plan to go to the bank. To ask about the house and the land. U know…loan thing-ing. I bring Mia along with me. We talk about leen, house, land and house…hehe…

At first, we went to the bank as I want to know the process of home loan. And then…we went to the mall to buy a donut…Just a donut…Hehehe… As soon as we finish buying a donut…we straightaway went to some places. Hehehe…

Then, we went to Sg Hanching at my land there. After that, we went to see her land at Jerudong. As on the way to bring her home… I started to laugh….

“Time passed by…Few years back…I never think of having a house and this and that about my future. I don’t give a shit what will my future will be. At that time…I only think how to enjoy myself tonight. Whats my plan for tonight? Where should I hang out? Only that… Never that I think about my future…

As now, I am a bit mature…I start to think to have a nice family and especially….my own house. I start to think…how many rooms should I build…for my future child(rens)… If my past friends got to meet me again nowadays…They might be a bit surprise for my changes. Well… I am very “jahat” a long time ago. Hahaha…

As many people said..Life goes on. My life never stop there. My past never come back to me and haunt me anymore. I left it behind as I never want to turn back to my past life. Its horrible and scary and I have always regret for what I have done before as I have disappointed everyone of my family. Huhhh… I never want to remember that. It makes me want to hit my own head and let it bleed… I am proud to have my family here…. They are very positive about me and they are very patient with all my doings…All my sins…All that I have done before… Thank you….

Few years after that… I change to be a better person. Much better than what people predict it. Whats make my family more happy.. I never come back to my past again… I don’t even glance at it…. Yokatta….

To my family..Thank you for always been there for me and always encourage me to go on with my life and never let me giving up with this life. Thank you….