No!!!!!!!!!!

I wish I don’t meet her at all…I wish I don’t go out with Mary at that time…I wish I stayed at the office that afternoon. I wish I could turn back time….

I meet her….My old pal of mine from few years back. The one who always with me for the past few years. We were always together before. The four of us always spend our time and waste our time until dawn.

After my parents get to know about it… I never get to contact them anymore until yesterday. Huh…

What should I do? Now actually I am excited and half of me, want to stay away from her. I am just worried that she might give me a bad influence and I might getting involve again with a bad things which I try as possible to forget about it.

Huhhh….

Is He The One For Me???

Today I went home late at night. I have been talking with Mary and we are talking about what life is…. What is expected and what is unexpected….

I have heard many stories about marriage from other people. It makes me worried and its frighten me to hear all this. After years of marriage…in the end after we are in the age of 40…we got divorce…. Its hurts the woman to be divorce in that kind of age. :’(

When I went home…I read a post of Mia. I feel sorry for her (Really…I am). It makes me worried about my own future…

And now…at this moment…. I am thinking…Is he really the right person for me? Will he still be with me after years and years of marriage…I am getting paranoid of it.

People around me (that I know..) got divorce after 10-30 years of marriage and living together….. What really happen actually?

In the end…I am stranded in my own thinking. And hoping for the great future with him….Amin….

Still In Love With You…My Dear Husband….

12 Nov 2008

Too many event happen on this days… Some are too funny..Some are dangerous and frightening that I couldn’t just forget. The others are miscellaneous( Hehehe… Sure mixed up).

Lets start from the morning first…I have a chat with Mary and Mia. (Actually I don’t really fancy chatting early in the morning, since usually I have many work to do in the morning).

Mary always come to me and talk to me almost about everything. I love her like she’s part of me and my family. That morning she chat with me about a girl named HK (Not The Real Name). I understand how Mary feels as I also feels the same too sometimes. I am trying to make Mary not to feel too disappointed with HK.

On the other half of it, I also have a chat with Mia. Mia told me about Nico’s conditions. I am a bit worried about Nico actually even though she doesn’t know that I am worried. Hehehe… U know Mia…I really hate when someones peeked and busybody into my private life…my private secret. That’s why when u tell me about it… I am so pissed off and bad mood. I hate it very much. This things happen to me before. At that time, I was working and I leave that person, Shu… at my room. And you know what.. As I was working at that time… Shu was also working in my room by reading all my diary…FUCK that Shu…. After that I didn’t contact with Shu anymore and in the end, I broke up with Shu.

Noon….I am taking my half-day work since my parents and I already planned to go to KK by 2:00 pm. When I reach home….My father told me that going to KK….. CANCELED. My father always do that in the last minute. Huh…. (Nasib baik belum packing barang…)

Evening…The unplanned schedule…We are suppose to go to KK…Instead we are going to Belait with uncle Hj. M. (Uncle…U still the coolest!!!!). Oh My God…I thought I am gonna lose my life there instant. The way he drive is like….Woooooo…. I dunno how to describe it. Its frightening me and we almost got accident for more than 10 times…(Glad I am still alive…). In the end…we found the place that we search for few hours…(pusing2 KB). And Guess what…. The person…went to Kuching. What the F***!!! After this hours…That person went to Kuching!!!! Ahhhh well…

Then…We accompany uncle Hj.M. to take his car…after we went home around 10.30 pm. Its very tiring yet…many things happen and things aren’t what I suppose to plan…Hehe…

P.s : Uncle hj.M….I hope u can go back to your old self…Bless you…